So it has taken quit a while sinds posting here. A lot have past, good things and less good things or better said experienced. But everything is an challenge you can learn from. So I will summarise some things I didn’t post here yet.
First off all, I am finally released from jail a.k.a. EX…. Bye bye bitch.
I had my first big trip in February to Ecuador and visited te Galapagos Islands also. An amazing experience first time of my life outside the European Union, flying. I will write a bit more about my trip later.
In January I started with my hormones and it working out absolutely great, getting waist, hips and a bit of boobies. I am feeling myself more and more, it changed me only my body but my mind to. 14 July this year my name and gender is officially changed. Still a few more kilo’s to loose but that’s not that much of a problem, gone from 48-50 to a decent 42… I’m not complaining, lost already 28 kilo’s so… Yup doing just great.
My first period on the hormones has been a bit strange, first you get in the menopause, cranky, libido below freezing point and the massive heatwave’s, luckily for me it was winter 🙂 After a while you start stabilizing to go back to the puberty which is pretty much the stage where I’m in now, my mind is making me say weird things, I talk when I think without thinking if it’s appropriate what might lead to weird faces and hilarious moments, a lot of fuck this, fuck that, or not to mention me saying to myself “you stupid cunt” where I also will reply with “I wish I had one already, I would play with it all day”….. So yeah, It’s me…
You starting to do everything in your life from the beginning, first time in public transport as female, going to a public restroom, groceries, visit museums but the best is going to shop for clothing and nice other girly stuff. A few weeks ago I had to draw a blood sample in a hospital in Rotterdam, after that I went to a big shopping mall where I once went with my ex, now alone to the Primark and some other stores, having a sandwich with some coffee and I enjoyed it so much… Honest, it was way better then the first time I visited that place… It shows how much confidence I created and the way I feel now, finally after all those years released from jail called male. Next up in my transitioning is checking on some plastic surgeons to see what they can do for me, just a tiny nose job and maybe a little other things and the Sex reassignment surgery (SRS).
What’s more, soled my old synths and got back to brand new ones, a sampler and the AKAI MPC studio. Yup you got to treat yourself right….
I have celebrated this summer my 50’s birthday and start counting over again, celebrated the fact I got my own house, everything is done with my toxic ex, there is nobody the earns money anymore and the official change of name and gender, yes it has been a good reason to throw a party with my friends and family.
What else, I have done quite some creative projects.
I will probably come back to it one day 🙂
So guess we are up to date somewhat, of course there is so much more to tell. But lat’s keep it for a later moment.